The silence is uncomfortable so I muster up the courage and decide break it. Cheetah’s going to be with us till we find Panterra and I can’t operate under this kind of stress. I clear my throat, slightly embarrassed by how loud it seems and ask,
"We have to talk about what happened? I mean, I said I was sorry what more can I do?"
"After what you pulled, I am surprised you would expect me to say anything to you."
"Look Chee- Uh- Sarah, you know I never meant for us to get serious like that? I mean, I travel all across the five galaxies and you do the super hero thing here on Earth. I just don’t see how it would have worked."
"How can you not see? I could've…I could've come with you, I would have given up everything. I thought you felt the same way. Or were you just stringing me along?"
"I wasn't stringing you along. I just knew where this was all headed. We fall in love, settle down, and raise a family. Then eventually I get to watch you and them all grow old and die while I live on? I did that once before and I just don't have the strength to go through it again."
"I can't help that you're a damn Elf and that you’ll live forever. All I know is how I feel and I care very deeply for you. I though you cared for me too. Do you?"
I don’t answer I just hang my head solemnly, I do care.
“That’s what I thought.”
Her words sting like an arrow, and I have nothing to say because I know she’s right. She makes me want to grow old with her but that's an impossibility Luminesti Elves like me don't grow old, and unless we're killed we don't die either. This talk was a bad idea so I decide to go back to the awkward silence again.